2017 in review

Super late to write about this, but I felt it was necessary. 2017 was a rollercoaster of a year for me. It had a lot of lows and highs, and the lows were probably some of the worst in my life.

This year I pretty much hit rock bottom in terms of productivity. Procrastination always happens, but the amount of slacking off I did was unbelievable. It got to the point where I had to consider the possibility of me having some kind of attention deficit disorder, or something that results in me having trouble focusing. I fell behind in every aspect of my life. I am still not sure what caused this, but it might be related to some of the bad habits that I picked up from my previous two (terrible) jobs. I basically found all sorts of ways to waste time while looking busy.

2017 was also the death of fighting games for me. Most of it has to do with Guilty Gear, and how terrible the Xrd Rev 2 update was. But honestly, it was already brewing last year. I was unhappy with the direction of the game with Rev 1, and Rev 2 this year was just the nail in the coffin. So I just stopped playing fighting games and uploading GG vids on my Youtube channel. There are a lot of reasons for this and it would be too long to include here, but I do have something written on Norematch. A new update has already been announced for GG, but I am not expecting much. Even if they make Millia not complete garbage, they are not changing the YRC and Blitz mechanic. I don’t think I can ever enjoy the game with YRC in its current degenerate state.

On the other hand, 2017 Summer was amazing. I picked up two part time tutoring jobs, which is not amazing in itself but it really developed my teaching skills. Especially in Chemistry, I felt like my knowledge in general chemistry had been lacking for a while. So having to tutor it brought me back up to speed.

This summer I also went to Evolution, after a 10 year absence! Yep, the last time I went was 2007, and the tournament was completely different back then. I remember that year it was in the Red Rock Hotel, which was not even on the Strip. The event has grown exponentially, and nowadays you cannot really call it a fighting game tournament anymore. It is closer to a trade show or convention that happens to have a fighting game tournament. Going to Evo again after all this time was a great experience. However, I also learned that I have gotten too old for fighting games. Or at least the part where you can play people endlessly for hours on end. That kind of lifestyle is not for me anymore.

Anime Expo this year was also amazing. The last few Anime Expos have been awful for me, with 2015 probably being the absolute worst one. The funny thing is that for people who are serious about going to conventions, 2017 AX is probably the worst one. It had a ton of problems, like bad organization causing the badge pickup line to extend into the ghetto with wait times exceeding 5 hours. But for me, everything went right for me. I can say that I finally got to do everything I wanted at an Anime Expo. I got to hang out with friends, met with some people who I have not seen in several years, had some good meals, and picked up a bunch of exclusive goods. It also helped that there was a Shadowverse booth this year, so I got a bunch of free promo cards.

Swag from Anime Expo 2017, including the first Millia illustration book from Ashiomi Masato, Isabelle card sleeves, and 3 Shadowverse promo cards. Wizardess of Oz is one of my all time favorite cards in game

This was also a pretty good year for games. A ton of amazing games came out in 2017, and some were the best that I have ever played, like Doki Doki Literature Club and Persona 5. I never would have expected that a free-to-play visual novel would be so memorable.

Finally, even though this year was my absolute worst for productivity, it was bad enough that it caused me to identify it as a problem. So now I have made it a habit to set small goals every day to be more organized. I might even start using an organizer!

2015 in review

So 2015 was kind of a bad year for me.  I feel like I was a bit antisocial in 2014, and that behavior seemed to get worse over time.  Combined with a number of unfortunate events that happened in the latter half of the year, 2015 sucked.  However, 2015 was also a big year for me as a lot of important events happened and I was able to reach a lot of milestones.

By far the most important thing was finally getting my first full time job!  I already wrote about this in the previous post, but the way I got the job was nothing short of a miracle.  I had no luck with Kelly Scientific(an online service that helps you find science related jobs) and the Chem class that I was assigned to teach during the summer at my school got cancelled due to low enrollment.  Things were looking bad, but my father just happened to see an ad in the Chinese newspapers for a Chemistry job and encouraged me to apply.  Having no real prior job experience, I expected no followup as usual, but much to my surprise I got an interview and was hired on the spot!  Of course, it was not all good news: the workplace was in a very inconvenient location and there were a lot of problems with the workplace and my employer.  In fact, I kind of hate my job now.  It also cut into a lot of the plans that I had during the summer, like finishing up my Masters program.  But it is a stepping stone for greater things in the future and I am thankful for that.

My productivity also went down this year, after I had a good run in 2014.  On one hand, you could say that my productivity in 2015 was the highest it had ever been since I was working full time.  But I was not able to do many of the things that I wanted to do outside of work.

During the months of October and early November I had the worst bout of bad luck, as a string of terrible events happened one after another.  It all began when one of my coworkers decided to suddenly quit, as he got an offer from a company that was much closer to his home.  When he quit, I was chosen as the person who would take over his old duties.  To give you an idea of the change, before he quit I was using one computer which was hooked up to two chemical analysis machines, both of which I was using actively.  Most people at my work also had the same setup, but would only use one of their analysis machines and leave the other one idle.  After he quit, I had to take over his computer, which was luckily hooked up to just one analysis machine, but that meant that I had to use 3 of them simultaneously.  So essentially I was doing 3 times the amount of work that everyone else was doing.  I really struggled, and there was a period of time where I was working at least 1 hour of overtime every day just to barely keep up.

During this time, Daylight Savings ended so it started getting darker earlier in the day.  That meant that it would already be dark by the time I got off work.  So my already terrible commute got even worse, since people just naturally drive worse when it is dark.  Essentially my schedule was waking up at around 6AM every day, leave for work at 7AM, and then get back home at 7PM.  After eating dinner, I would have an hour of free time before it was time to get ready for bed.  It was an exhausting time and weekends did not feel long enough.  I was really tired and made some silly mistakes at work, and my boss being the insensitive person that she is even had the audacity to accuse me of intentionally screwing up to sabotage the company.

But it doesn’t even end there.  During this period of time I was having endless technical difficulties at work.  I was actively using two computers and three chemical analysis machines, and there was never a moment where they were all in working condition.  My main computer even had a hard drive failure which made me lose about 2 weeks worth of work.  It felt really unfair for me to be doing more work than anyone else when the company could not provide me the equipment needed to do my job properly.

During this time I also got into my first car accident!  Compared to a lot of other people, I am pretty lucky in that it took me 4 years since I started driving for my first accident to occur.  So what happened was that I was driving to work in the morning, and the car in front of me made a very sudden stop.  I was able to stop in time, and the car in back of me was able to stop in time.  But Car #4 was not paying attention, due to the driver watching his GPS.  He could not stop fast enough, and so he hit all of us.  Car #3 and #4 were totaled, and my back bumper got bent out of shape, so that the trunk could not close anymore.  Parts of the bumper were also on the verge of falling off.  Despite that, I thought that the damage was fairly minor, as my car was still in driving condition.

However, within a month, that car would get into another accident!  On the weekend, my mom took the car to buy groceries, and she got hit from the side from a car backing out of the parking lot.  This accident was even less severe than mine, and when we got an estimate of the car damages the guy was very optimistic that we could get a private auto shop to do the repairs with the money allocated.  But once we started asking around, all of the shops refused, saying that the repair costs would be double the value of the car.  So right now it looks like the only choice is to report the car as a total loss.  I’m really sad because the car has really served my family well.  The engine is still in great condition and there are no serious problems, other than the trunk being unable to close.

Fighting games were a very mixed bag for me this year.  On one hand, they were terrible because my region’s main arcade Super Arcade shut down and could not reopen due to a string of bad luck.  Without a real venue, I felt like a lot of people lost motivation to keep playing and we all started to see each other less often.  On the other hand, I also feel like I was able to set a new bar for my fighting game skills.  I had already stopped playing stick in 2014, and then decided to switch over to a Saturn pad in 2015 after surprise winning an eBay auction.  The Saturn pad is amazing, and has fixed one of my biggest problems with playing pad which was getting worn out thumbs after playing for a few hours.  There were also a number of motions that I had difficulty executing with the Dualshock pad, but could do very easily with the Saturn.  So my execution and consistency improved immensely, which allowed me to focus more on fighting against my opponent.  Guilty Gear Xrd also came out, so all of a sudden I had way more people to play with!

2015 is also the year where I got into Hearthstone!  I have always found collectible card games fascinating, but was turned off by the high price of entry.  Even though it might be necessary to pay money to be super competitive in HS, you are at least given a decent amount of cards to start with right off the bat.  It’s a really fun game that is very convenient to play due to it being available on several platforms including mobile.  I still like fighting games more, but admittedly playing them can be a hassle because you have to travel and set aside a few hours for a session.  And there is always lag to deal with if you decide to netplay.

Other important things that happened this year include my house getting some much needed renovations!  Right now, I am really looking for a better job so I can quit my current one.  Also readjusting my life so that I can have time to do things during the week, and finishing up my Masters program.  I hope 2016 is better than 2015!  Not making any resolutions this time since I have enough things to worry about with my life.

I have also been thinking of switching up the theme on this blog.  The Panel theme is great, but I really do not like the infinite scroll for older posts.  It does not look like there is any option to turn that off.

Working

Have not updated in a long time because my life has been going through some big changes.  I finally got a real job!  Although I have been working part time for the past four years, this is my first full time position.  And to make things better, it is 100% related to what I majored in: Chemistry.  There are a lot of problems with this job though.  The first and biggest one is the location: it is all the way down in Irvine so with traffic it usually takes me a little more than an hour to get there every day.  The way back is about the same, too.  The other problem is that it is a relatively small lab, and it is obvious that the owner is totally willing to cut corners.  So the lab is missing basic things, like good air conditioning, networking and Internet access for every computer, up to date hardware and software, etc…  The computer that I use at work has no Internet and is still on Windows 2000!  It really feels like I’ve jumped back in time 15 years.  I actually would not mind having no Internet access, but the lab building blocks phone signals so I can’t even use my 4G.  True 1st world problems.

Ultimately, this job is really important to me because it will give me a lot of experience and will add a bunch of stuff to my resume.  One of the biggest mistakes I made in college was not taking internships in related fields, so I was sorely lacking in job experience.  So it was good that I was somehow able to land this job without any experience whatsoever.  Because of the issues, it is not a job that I plan on staying at forever.  It is really just a stepping stone to get something better in the future.  Hopefully that will happen within the next year.

But yeah, I feel like I have no time to do anything now.  Driving for more than 2 hours every day is really brutal.  I don’t usually feel tired when working, but when I get home the exhaustion comes down like a hammer.  Obviously, I do have a little bit of free time on the weekdays, but I’m so tired that I would rather rest than do anything.  Weekends feel way too short now too.  The worst part about all this is that despite my complaining, I know that some people have it even worse than me.  Some people have to make the same kind of drive, but when they get home they have to cook and take care of their family.  I don’t know if I can ever do that with my current job.

2014 in review

Since everyone else is doing it, here is a summary of my 2014!

The good

  • Reading – This is definitely the year where I spent the most amount of time doing some quality reading.  As a result, I am way more in-tune with 2014 current events and news than any other year.  This is definitely because of me getting a smartphone.  I technically got the smartphone in 2013, but it wasn’t until 2014 that I really started to use it for everyday things.  So I would just use my phone to read the news when I wasn’t doing anything outside.  Thank you gReader, you are the god.  And Reddit News!
  • Productivity – My resolution for the last New Year’s was to be more productive, and for once I actually followed through!  I wasn’t as productive as I wanted to be, but it was still an improvement compared to 2013.
  • Enjoying fighting games – I was going through a slump in fighting games for most of 2014.  I really wasn’t enjoying them as much as I used to and it felt like a chore just to keep up.  Luckily I seem to have gotten out of the slump, and I am now way more motivated to keep practicing.  I’m pretty sure switching back to pad from stick helped.
  • Writing – There were several moments in 2014 where I felt very motivated to write, and for once I actually went through with it!  I found that the biggest thing that held me back from writing was just figuring out where to start.  Reading the short post The 30 second habit with a lifelong impact on Medium was particularly inspirational and helped me start a lot of pieces that I’ve had on my mind for awhile.

The bad

  • Social media – Getting a smartphone wasn’t entirely a good thing.  I did spend a lot more time reading the news, but I also wasted a lot of time on social media.  I definitely have to dial it back this year.
  • Keeping in touch – I was reaaaaalllly bad at keeping in contact with my college and high school friends in 2014.  Not really sure what happened.  There was just something about 2014 that made me way more antisocial than before.
  • Quitting stick – Yeah I know I listed this in the good section, but it was also a bad thing because I never fully transitioned to stick.  I made a lot of progress, but it sucks to stop something when you have been working on it for over a year.
  • Being true – I feel like I spent a good deal of 2014 worrying about what other people thought of me.  It’s not necessarily a bad thing, but I really should have been more true to myself.

So my New Year’s resolution for 2015 is to just be myself, and make more of an effort to stay in touch with my college friends!

2014 Resolutions

There are a little over 3 hours left until 2013 is over in my area right now, and I’ve decided on a New Years resolution for the next year! My resolution is:

  • Daytime is for work
  • Nighttime is for leisure

2013 has probably been my most unproductive year, and I realized that one of the biggest reasons for this was in me wasting the day away. There were many times where I decided to take a quick break from work during the day to play a game or read something. Normally not a big deal, but 9 times out of 10 that break would consume the entire day and make me too tired to do anything productive once dinnertime rolled around. So I resolve to stop procrastinating and get the productive stuff done during the day when I still have energy.