Trying to win is pretty much what everyone is doing when playing competitive games. But recently I have noticed that I am not always playing to win in fighting games. In particular, it happens when playing against really strong players who have that special aura. You know, the aura that makes you second guess yourself with every action you take. For Guilty Gear, the only players in my region who seem to have that aura are Jo and Eiji. When I play against them, it feels like I’m trying to hold back the tide. It becomes less about playing to win and more about playing to not lose. Part of it also has to do with both of them playing characters who have explosive damage potential.
This is probably one of the reasons why I seem to be unable to get better in Gundam. Because in that game, I am pretty much always playing to not lose. It is clear that my fundamental understanding of that game is weak, so I need to work on that.